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The Journey and the Destination

29
August
2009

Circus Galacticus is now out of my hands and off in the big world (good luck, little book!), but the universe and the characters are still very much on my brain. What is interesting to me is that I don’t think I’ve ever felt this kind of burning desperation to get to the end in my writing. That’s not to say I haven’t enjoyed writing my other books– I wouldn’t be doing this if I didn’t love all these stories and characters. But just as I love reading different books for different reasons, I am discovering that I love writing different stories for different reasons. I’ve been trying to explain this to myself in terms of the journey and the destination.

There are some books I love to read because of the journey. They have marvelous characters I just plain enjoy hanging out with, and detailed worlds I can sink into and enjoy. I don’t want to race through these books to find out what happens. There may be overarching plots and usually the main characters do undergo some sort of character development, but that’s not the main reason I am reading the book. I read them because I want to linger in the world, with these characters. Some of the books that fall into this category for me are: the Anne books (L. M. Montgomery), Dragonsinger (Anne McCaffrey), the various Georgette Heyer books I’ve read so far, the Betsy-Tacy books (Maud Hart Lovelace), Howl’s Moving Castle (Diana Wynne Jones), Flora Segunda (Ysabeau Wilce), the Beezus and Ramona books (Beverly Cleary), Dairy Queen (Catherine Gilbert Murdock). Just because I didn’t feel compelled to stay up all night finishing these books doesn’t mean I think they are inferior by any means. In fact, several of the above books are on my all-time, take-to-a-desert-isle list.

Then there are books that I read (and do not necessarily enjoy) because of the destination. I race through to get to the end to find out what happens, even if I don’t particularly care about the characters or the world. I just want to KNOW HOW IT ENDS. Most of the time I don’t even really remember these books after I read them (and sometimes, I admit, I do skip to the end) so I don’t have a lot of examples fresh in mind, except for The DaVinci Code. I read it, even as I was frustrated by it in many ways, because I was compelled to find out how it ended. They’re like popcorn or mindless action movies. I can’t stop consuming them once I start, but they don’t really satisfy.

Lastly, there are books that I read for both journey and destination — I want to linger with the characters and explore the world, but at the same time I have to find out how it ends. Will the characters I love be okay? Will the things I am hoping for happen? Will character X end up with character Y? I only had to read the first chapter of The Hunger Games online to become obsessed with finding out what would become of Katniss and her loved ones. When I finally got a copy I tried to slow down, to make the most of the reading experience, but it was very very difficult. If I could have gotten my hands on Catching Fire last fall, I would have read it at once to find out what happened next. Likewise as each new Harry Potter book was released, the only thing that kept me from devouring them whole was that my husband and I were listening to the audio versions together. And even so, there were many nights we didn’t do anything but sit there listening to find out what was going to happen. As much as I loved the details of the wizarding world and the wonderful cast of characters, I also wanted desperately to find out how it would all end. More recently, I listened to the audio book of Tamora Pierce’s Beka Cooper: Terrier, and even before I was on the last disk I went to check out book 2 from the library, because I was obsessed with finding out if certain things were going to happen (and alas, it looks like I am going to have to wait for book 3 to find them out!).

For me, writing has most often been more about the journey. I am not sure if that’s because my books themselves are more journey-books than destination-books, or just a feature of my practice of writing from an outline. CIRCUS, however, has been a different sort of beast. I did very much love the journey of writing the first book, and I believe it ends with the characters reaching a satisfying destination. But more than ever before, I want to know where these characters are going to go next. Will character X end up with character Y? What tragedies and joys will they experience? How will it all end?

At first I thought maybe I could quiet those clamoring voices by outlining the rest of the series I envision, and perhaps writing the last few chapters (the big climactic ending) of the final book. But what I’ve realized is that I really do need the journey too. If it were enough to simply find out what happens, this would just be one of those forgettable type 2 books as described above. So, since I’ve finished my writing goal for the year in completing Circus Galacticus and sending it off, so now I will take some time this fall to play, and indulge my own passion to find out not only the destination my characters are headed for, but what sort of journey is going to get them there. I am looking forward to it!

Fellow outliners — what is your experience with the journey versus the destination, given that you may have a pretty detailed map? And those of you who are more seat-of-your-pants writers, do you feel this sort of driving passion to find out what happens in your books, since you may be finding it out at the same time as your characters? Or is your writing experience more about the journey?

Finally, here’s some other tidbits:

  • I feel very fortunate right now to have such excellent friends and family. Like my college friend Tara, who went out and got a copy of Fortune’s Folly, sent me a sweet note about it, then also forwarded me happy little notes from her own relations who she passed it along to. And my uncle Eric (who always sent me the best books for my birthday when I was a kid!) just forwarded a lovely little review from a friend of his at work (thank you, Bob!).
  • I’ve got four library visits and one bookstore signing scheduled for this fall, whee! I am looking forward to getting out and meeting more book-loving people. I will be updating my website with more details once they are fixed.
  • I’m also going to be attending the Bar Harbor Book Festival on September 12 and 13. There will be panels and readings and Real Author Stuff. Plus it’s in an absolutely gorgeous location. I am really looking forward to meeting some of the wonderful writers I know online in person for the first time, like my fellow deb Erin Dionne, and the event organizer, the fabulous Carrie Jones. And even though we’ve already met in person several times, it will be great to see my other fellow deb-from-Maine, Megan Frazer.

Why I Write

24
August
2009

There are times when I forget why I write, times when I doubt myself and wonder if I’m just writing because of some misguided fantasy about “being an author”. And to be honest, there’s a part of me that does fantasize about it: the little writing cottage, the awards, the fan mail, meeting other authors and being one of the cool kids. But that’s not why I write. And I don’t do it for the money either (though money is nice!).

This is why I write:

  • Because my mind is a net collecting weird, sparkly, magical stuff, and I need to do something with all of it.
  • Because I woke up this morning with a twist for the end of the CIRCUS books that fit so perfectly I can’t believe I didn’t think of it before this. It’s those moments when the story suddenly feels real. It’s not just a spattering of words flung out of your fingertips. It’s alive. It knows what it wants to be.
  • Because when I finished my newest revision of CIRCUS last night, I still loved the book. I loved writing it, I loved meeting those characters and exploring their world. Sure, I hope readers will get to see it someday and that they will love it too. But right at this moment, when it’s still (mostly) my book alone, I am content. Whatever else happens, I am so glad I had the chance to write this book. For me.

Of course, part of the reason I am posting this is so I can look back at it later if I fall into the depths of despair and remind myself of what is really important. Because it is SO easy to get lost in the sea of amazon rankings and sales and reviews and web presence. But none of that is worth anything without a story you love, a story you have to tell.

On a tangential but important note, anyone interested in promoting a love of reading might be interested in this posting at The Reading Zone, which in turn is about this post at Musings of a Book Addict. I am grateful to all the teachers and librarians out there who are working so hard to try to help kids see reading as something that can be fun and rewarding, not just rote, unpleasant busywork.

Eleven Things

09
August
2009

A while back I presented a talk about writing, and to prepare myself I sat down and tried to come up with a list of writing advice that has worked for me. I thought it might be of interest to other folks so here it is:

Five things I recommend most highly:

READ: This is, in my opinion, THE most important thing to do if you want to write. Read books. And I mean all kind of books, not just the type or genre you like best. When you read, think about your reactions. What is it about your favorite books that makes them so good? What things don’t work so well?

OBSERVE: Good writing feels real (even fantasy!). Reality is based on strong grounding details. One of the most important things you can do as a writer is to learn to really observe the world around you. Pay attention to smells, colors, textures, sounds, and take notice of the different ways people talk and walk, and how it feels physically when you are sad or happy. Think about what details define a physical place or an experience. If you make a habit of this, you can store up a treasure-trove of details to use in your writing. (Observing is also a great place to get story ideas!).

WRITE: Most people can’t pick up a violin, step onstage and play a concerto. Likewise most writers are not going to sell the first thing they write. The important thing to remember is that nothing you write is truly wasted. It’s all part of the learning process. So keep writing!

STAY DETERMINED: That learning process might take a long time. And it’s tough. A lot of writers end up tossing away whole novels. And even when you finally write something you believe in, the process of submitting to literary agents or editors usually involves a lot of rejections. I received over a hundred rejections before I finally found my agent and editor. It is hard to get your book or story published. But it’s impossible if you give up. So stay determined!

FIND OTHERS: Staying determined can be a lot easier if you have the company of other people who will understand your frustrations and cheer you onward. It’s also really helpful to find other people who are willing to read your work and offer feedback. These people might be a local writing group, or members of one of the many online critique groups out there.

And here are six things that can stand in your way:
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Endings

09
July
2009

There’s an interesting discussion going on over at The Five Randoms on book endings.

Some of my (quite random) thoughts, reposted here:

I do think good endings are very important — a good beginning will make me keep reading a book, but a bad ending will definitely spoil my experience of an otherwise good book, like a terrible dessert at the end of a delicious dinner.

I am a sap so I do enjoy a good, well-deserved happy ending. But I don’t need one to be satisfied by a book – I loved the ending of THE TIME-TRAVELER’S WIFE (it made me cry, one of only three books to do so that don’t feature sad things happening to dogs). I particularly love it when the main character doesn’t get exactly what she/he started the book wanting, but realizes that what they do end up with is better, even if it’s bittersweet.

There’s also the issue of unresolved plot threads, whether in a series, or not. I know some folks have been less than thrilled with the ending to THE HUNGER GAMES due to certain aspects of the story being unresolved, but I actually quite liked it. I felt the issues I cared most about were resolved, and the other issues were left in a state that felt fair to me, given the actions and nature of the main character. But as in much about writing, it really does vary from book to book and reader to reader.

One type of ending that I encounter regularly in my favorite genre (fantasy) that I think is often mishandled is “the big magical shebang” where some giant spell goes off, or some portal opens, or some otherwise large-scale magical event occurs and everything gets resolved against a fantastical lightshow backdrop. These can be well-done (and I must admit I have one of these at the end of my second book) but a lot of the time I feel sort of like the author got too overwhelmed and just decided to throw in a bunch of FX to distract the reader from the actual plot resolution.

I am a sucker for books where the ending somehow reflects or resonates with the beginning, either physically (characters return to the same location) or thematically (the questions/issues posed in the opening paragraph) or both. So that you could hold up the first paragraph, and the last paragraph, and sort of see the entire book captured there. This is something I aim for in my own books.

And lastly, one thing that will make me want to throw a book across the room is when a character is killed off at the end and I feel like it’s only being done because the author wants to show the reader that “things are serious” (this rule applies to TV and movies too, Joss Whedon). I can understand that desire, but it generally just feels like cheating to me.

What about you guys? How do you feel about endings? What do you look for, and what turns you off? What are some of your favorite endings?

Pushing Yourself

07
July
2009

I’ve been doodling around with ideas for the next book, while CIRCUS GALACTICUS is off with a few brave readers. I’m generally never short on kernel ideas for books, but the last few years especially have taught me that “cool idea” does not equal “book I should start writing NOW”. The thing I really need is “cool idea + fully-fleshed character”. So I’m trying to be aware of that.

But another thing I’ve been thinking about is how I can push myself with this next project. What do I want to do better? Are there new things I want to attempt?

Here are some of mine:

1) Third-person POV. I used to write in this all the time, but lately I’ve been using first for everything. When I try third, it feels sort of like playing the piano — I haven’t played since I was 12 and I am rusty. But I know it is possible to pull out beautiful music, if only I put in the time to practice.

2) Beautiful prose. I adore beautiful prose. Reading a book where you want to say lines over and over because they are so striking and evocative and lovely. I still value plot and character first and foremost, but I still aspire to crafting writing that sings.

3) Emotion. I hardly ever cry reading books (last time was THE TIME-TRAVELER’S WIFE, unless you count books where sad things happen to dogs, which always get me sniffly). But I love it when they do, and when I feel the love and pain and joy of the characters so sharply it makes me sit up and gasp. I would love to write the sort of compelling romance (or other deep emotional relationship) that I look for as a reader.

4) Complex mystery. I love twisty-turny plots with hidden layers and unexpected reveals that make you smack your head because they make perfect sense but you never expected them. Books where you go back and re-read for more details, to see all the cool bits you missed.

What about you guys? What sort of things do you want to push yourself toward as a writer (or any other sort of artist)?

Recipe for Happiness

25
June
2009

No, I don’t actually have one. Though adorable dog + beloved husband + excellent reading material + tea + chocolate works pretty well.

There’s been a bunch of excellent posts around the internet lately, talking about writerly self-confidence and angst, envy, happiness, and everything in between. And it’s something I’ve been thinking about quite a bit since selling my books. So although I don’t have a recipe for happiness, I do think I’ve started to understand myself a little better. I’ve still got a ways to go, but I wanted to put a few things down here, for myself, and for anyone else who might find them useful.

I remember very distinctly going into a bookstore in November of 2003 (while I was in the middle of drafting Fortune’s Folly, actually!) and feeling a physically painful yearning: I wanted my book to be there. I wanted other people to read my stories, and enjoy them. To establish that connection with readers. And I did believe that if I could sell my book, that yearning feeling would go away and I’d be happy.

Then I picked up a book (it was Kai Meyer’s The Water Mirror, which takes place in a fantasy Venice) and felt this huge wave of self-doubt: Fortune’s Folly also involves a fantasy city inspired by Venice and all I could think was that I was an unoriginal hack. In fact, I just went and found the old livejournal post from that day. Here’s an excerpt:

So many wonderful authors. So many beautiful words and fabulous characters. I’m having a crisis of faith in my ability now. My characters are flat and unlikable, my prose stinks, my plot is silly, etc.

At least I had some inkling of what was really going on, since I also said:

But it’s happened before and I know this too shall pass. Hopefully by tomorrow. I need my positive energy…

It took a lot more yearning and a lot more self-doubt (and a lot of rejections!) but I finally did sell Fortune’s Folly in early 2007. I was over the moon, thrilled, excited, dancing around the house. It was definitely one of the happiest experiences of my life so far.

And yes, I think on the whole I am happier today, in 2009, than I was in 2003. Part of that is thanks to knowing my book is out there, that I made my dream happen, and that people are reading it. The very sharpest pains of yearning have been dulled. I can’t remember the last time I lay awake at 2AM wrestling with existential angst. And there’s plenty of non-writing things have also made me happier: moving to a state and city I love where I am near my good friends, adopting a dog, taking more control of my fitness and health, planting a garden. I’m even reading better books! A lot of it, though, is just plain recognizing that life is valuable. Time is valuable. I’m better now at prioritizing what really matters to me and mine, and cutting out what isn’t.

But I also still yearn painfully for things I don’t have (starred reviews, awards, foreign rights sales, etc.). And I still dip into valleys of doubt, in which I am convinced I am an utterly untalented hack. Realizing that I was still going to have to battle envy and self-doubt was one of the least pleasant discoveries of the past two years. I spent a good amount of energy being angry at myself for not being happier.

Thank goodness for the internet, though, because it’s connected me with so many wise and wonderful fellow writers and book-lovers, and I think I am finally starting to get a clue how to make this work. The thing is: wanting more is part of human nature. It’s what drives us to build space shuttles and create symphonies. Seeing faults is part of human nature. It’s what allows us to experiment and develop the science to build those space ships, and to find the right notes that harmonize so perfectly.

So here’s what I do.

When I’m fighting with envy: The big key for me is recognizing that I don’t really want exactly what someone else has. I may envy J. K. Rowling’s success but I honestly don’t wish I had written Harry Potter. I love those books, but they aren’t mine. What I really truly want is for that thing to happen to me, for my own books to be good enough to make people love them. If I can twist it around in my mind just right, it turns the envy into a desire to improve my own writing, to try harder, to dare for more.

When I’m fighting self-doubt: There are two things that help with this. One is simply that I’ve gone through enough ups and downs to know that both are temporary. So when I am having a miserable day, I can look back and remind myself that I had a miserable day last month too, and it passed. The second thing I do is to focus on my enthusiasm, rather than my self-confidence. I thank my fellow writer R. J. Anderson for that realization, since she’s the one who first directed me to this excellent article. The thing is, I may not be confident that other people will like my work, or that it will sell, or even that my writing is up to snuff. But I know that I was enthusiastic about the story, that there’s something about it I love and want to bring out. So I focus on what excites me and makes little shivers run along my skin as I dream about it. If I can find the love rather than dwelling on the fears, I can usually move onward.

It doesn’t always work, but it’s what I strive for, and I think it’s helping me make my envy and self-doubt work for me, rather than the other way round.

How about you folks? Anyone else struggle with these things? How do you cope?

Character Strengths and Weaknesses

03
June
2009

I had a writing epiphany yesterday, and like most of my writing epiphanies, it’s something relatively basic I just never took the time to think about until now.

It started as I was struggling over a new chapter in my circus book. The MC has (almost) hit rock-bottom, having recently screwed a number of things up in her life and learned some things about her past that she didn’t like. Now she needs to go obtain a piece of information that will progress the external plot to the next stage. The information is in the spaceship recycling system, which happens to be inhabited by Something Alien. My initial thought was “Oh, she can fight it”, because this MC’s primary strengths are her bravery and physical abilities. To reduce things to gaming terminology, if Fortunata was a bard (strong in words and wits) and Prunella was a mage (strong in magic and knowledge), then Trix is a warrior (hit it! hit it again!).

The problem is, I myself find just hitting/shooting things boring most of the time. There needs to be something critical and meaningful at stake, or there needs to be witty banter, or it needs to be spectacularly beautiful (which generally means it has to be a movie/tv show – I do love a good kung fu movie!). Otherwise, the story takes on a certain video-game quality: Fight X, get Y, Fight Z, Advance to level Q.

Looking back to my last two writing projects, I realized how fun it was to set challenges in front of the main characters, because they couldn’t just fight their way through them. They had to be clever and think outside the box, and sometimes they failed, but they kept trying. Their limitations were as inspiring as their strengths.

And that’s when I had my epiphany: I need to throw some things at Trix that don’t play to her strengths. Giving her something to beat up is too easy. I need to confront her with something that targets her weaknesses. As soon as I thought that, the whole scene started outlining itself in my brain.

What about you guys? What are the strengths and weaknesses of your favorite characters? And if you’re a writer, how do you balance strengths and weaknesses of your characters?

Doubt

31
March
2009

Doubt is one of my biggest challenges as a writer. I say “challenges” rather than “enemies” because sometimes the doubt is justified, so I can’t just ignore it. If I’ve got a niggling feeling that something isn’t right in the last chapter, it’s because there really is something that needs fixing. When it becomes problematic is when it paralyzes me during a draft (like, say, right now).

I don’t generally doubt my basic plot element (this is the thing that comes to me first — for FORTUNE’S FOLLY this was the question “what if there was a fake prophecy someone needed to make come true?”).

But I doubt a lot of my other choices: Should this be first or third-person? Who should be the point-of-view character? Where should the story start? Should it go this way or that way? I worry that maybe I am making certain choices because they are comfortable and have worked before, and that maybe I am just being a coward for not trying new things. I worry that I’ll spend months writing a book only to look at it when I am done and hate it and need to redo it all.

What I am trying to keep in mind is that for some of those questions, there may not be one “right” answer. If I tell the story one way, I get one book. A different choice might lead to a different book, but not necessarily a better book. But if I don’t make a choice at all, if I sit here at my keyboard paralyzed by the doubt, nothing will get written.

I’ve come to believe that one of the the best things I can do to improve as a writer is to understand my own process (and keep in mind that process can change with each book, just to keep things interesting). For example, I almost always go through a period where I doubt whether my main character is fully-realized and alive. And usually that doubt is a sign that she/he is NOT. When the character is ready, when I’ve found her and she’s alive, I know it. There’s no more doubt. Or rather, there’s a different kind of doubt. At that point I “only” have to worry about whether I am capable of conveying that life to the reader!

So, I am going to keep writing. I may go back and start over a different way, and see if I like it better. I may keep going with what I have now. But eventually I will get to the end. And it won’t be perfect by any means, but it will be a step forward. I just need to keep moving forward, and not get paralyzed by doubt.

Some other stuff:

~The results are up for author Lisa Mantchev’s LOLShakespeare contest, which I was lucky enough to help judge. Check them out over here. It was very very hard to choose favorites! But I do particularly like the pile of white cats in the Band of Brothers picture.

~Copy-edits on THE MAGICAL MISADVENTURES OF PRUNELLA BOGTHISTLE are on the way, and should arrive tomorrow. Woo! My wonderful copy-editor on FORTUNE’S FOLLY found several things I completely overlooked that would have embarrassed me considerably had they made it to print, so I am curious to see what’s been discovered this time. Thank goodness for copy-editors!

Words, Glorious Words

07
February
2009

I love words (I know, what a surprise, right?). One of my favorite books as a kid was The Insomniac’s Dictionary, by Paul Hellweg. It lists all sorts of cool lists of words. Like words for collections of animals (a clowder of cats, a parliament of owls, a knot of toads) or lists of the longest words in the dictionary. I must have spent hours reading that book.

I particularly love discovering that a word exists for something I didn’t know had its own word. I’ve always loved the smell that rises up from the damp soil after a summer rain, but it was only a few years ago (courtesy of the fabulous A.Word.A.Day) that I found out there was a word for it: Petrichor.

And then there are the words that are just plain fun to say. Perambulate. Pulchritude. Jackanapes. Banana. Hornswaggle.

And finally there are the beautiful words. I’ve been reading through and loving this list of what are purportedly The 100 Most Beautiful Words in the English Language, which I heard about from writer Alexandra Bracken (her debut fantasy Brightly Woven is due out in Spring 2010 and sounds very cool).

Some of my favorites from the list:

  • dulcet
  • ethereal
  • glamour (but only if spelled with the u!)
  • mellifluous
  • penumbra
  • serendipity

Some I would have cut (they are interesting, but not beautiful, in my opinion):

  • encomium
  • eschew
  • fescue
  • fugacioius (then again, I can’t even figure out how to pronounce it — maybe it does sound beautiful if you know the trick!)
  • pastiche

I also found a name for a character in my circus book from among the 110 words on that site. Anyone care to guess which it is?

And which words do you folks like best? Are there any particularly cool words you’ve found recently?

What do you look for in a book?

23
January
2009

The lovely Chandler of the Fumbling with Fiction blog has interviewed me — my very first blog interview! You can check it out here! She’s been interviewing a bunch of debut writers so check out the archives for more!

One of the questions Chandler asked was related to what I hoped I might achieve as a writer. I’ve been thinking about that question a bit more since responding, and also on a related question: what response do I hope my books might provoke in readers?

I am pretty sure there are authors out there who want to write books of staggering literary merit, books that reshape the way people think, or change people’s lives. And there are certainly authors out there writing books that do accomplish those things.

For my part, I have come to realize there are two main things I want my books to have (books I read, and books I write): I want them to have heart, and I want them to entertain me (and hopefully my readers).

Of course that all depends upon definitions: what does make a book entertaining? What is heart? I’m sure other people have different qualities that make a book entertaining, or give it heart.

For me, an entertaining book has a plot that engages (often with an element of mystery) and details that pull me in and make me want to keep reading. And a book with heart, for me, is one that connects me to the characters, or to humanity as a whole, and makes me feel like I understand the universe, and what life is all about, just a little bit better.

There are books that have entertained me without providing what I would consider “heart”. I will admit that I read Dan Brown’s The Da Vinci Code, and despite the things I didn’t like about it (which were many) there was a definite pull that just made me keep reading. For me, it was the equivalent of the sort of popcorn-action-movies that I also love. I watch them, enjoy them while I’m there, and then forget about them.

In contrast, there are books like The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins, which I read with just as much breathless engagement, but which also resonated on a much more emotional level. There was something more there (for me, at least) in Katniss struggling to keep her loved ones safe, in the characters and their connections to one another. It made me feel that glimmery-shifty feeling as if I were on the brink of some better understanding of what it means to be human.

There are probably books out I did not personally find entertaining that do have “heart” — but since I tend to put aside books that don’t engage me, I’m having trouble coming up with any examples!

So to sum up, my aim is to tell a story that makes readers feel connected, to explore and delight in the human experience and the marvel and mystery of the universe. But, first and foremost, I want to tell that story well, and make the reading experience fun.

So how about you folks? What do you look for in a book?
And if you are a writer, what response do you hope your books will provoke in readers?